I don’t regret much. But I wasted a lot of time and feel like I can not undo the damaged done from that time. I wasted my one and only chance and now I no longer believe. And it sickens me when I am reminded of it. It grips my stomach with shame and nausea. Why oh why was I so stupid? I gambled. Went against everything I believed in, went against “my usual” and I gained nothing from it. Unless you count weight, shame, and loss of hope.

Sour Girl lyrics © EMI Music Publishing, Universal Music Publishing Group, Warner/Chappell Music, Inc.

wordslessspoken:

What’s 6 years between souls? Just a moment.

nevver:

Emptiness will

Some people argue that Religion has ruined humanity. In the name of religion we have started wars, inhibited  women, and promoted men in a way that is inhumane. With that being said is the opposite of human, religious? And have we become hypocrites in the fact we judge those who claim to be religious as “nut jobs”? I question so many things I read. I question so many things I hear. I even question what is in my heart because that to is influence by society and atmosphere. We can blame many things for our faults as a whole, as a humanity. But we are human. We want to be right, we want to be just and we want others to be like us so we don’t feel we have lived a life in vain. As one, as humanity we all want the same thing. To love, to live, to feel. If we do this for ourselves and for others wouldn’t this world be a better place? Because when I read the Bible. That’s the message I am receiving. Along with whatever you are going through someone else has, will, and suffered more. So love, live, feel and take nothing for granted.

nevver:

— Chuck Palahniuk

Life is great. I am happy. The End.

“Don’t make the same mistakes I did” I heard that a lot from my parents. And now I understand them both more than ever. I understand my Mom’s neurosis and my Dad’s perfectionism. I remember their actions when they were my age. I remember how they handled things. Most importantly though, I remember when they both changed drastically. When neither one could even pretend to be a level-headed parent or human being. I don’t blame them for anything, they both did the best they could with what they had. The best part was how open they were. I am able to understand my neurosis better because they didn’t mask anything. Because they let their emotions and insecurities show. Because I had way too many drunken nights with them. Because they were only 18 when I was born and I have yet to see them mature into adults. Because of it all;I am a better person for it. And that is all any parent can hope for; that their child is better than them.